New Year's Eve 2006
I can't believe that it's the end of 2006 already. Time seems to have seriously warped this year. Somehow, I got lost between April and November. It seems as if summer was completely swallowed, perhaps because I was teaching so much. But it does seem strange--all Fall I've been thinking "What happened to the summer?"
II think there are several other reasons. One, I really lost Mondays due to the 6 hour teaching schedule, which absolutely obliterates a whole day and also destroys the rhythm of the week. I just feel out of kilter the remaining days. Two, it was a cold and wet soccer season, the first in years, so another rhythm was disrupted. Third, it got cold, too cold, too early in November. December has been temperate, but hideously overcast, and so as the days have shrunk down we have had far too little sun. The last six weeks the days have been monotonous, unforgivingly short, and dreary.
BUt I have accepted a new job, it begins in two days, so tomorrow is my last day in the odd interregnum between teaching and administrating. I have spent the last two weeks trying to prepare myself, bolster myself for the transition, but I've done so out of a holistic intellectual sense, downloading tons of ideas about leadership without the burden of discrete goals. All of this prep work ends tomorrow, and I enter my new skin, my new being, my new title, on Tuesday. Tuesday, 9 am. Until then, I am still in the interegnum.
I think the main person I need to convince is myself. It will become a reality on Tuesday.
Odd. Odd to take over in mid year, odd to start the new calendar year which such a vastly different position. Odd to be so isolated from the position, and then to suddenly step into it. I haven't experienced this kind of career shift in over twenty years. The challenge for me is to find a new way to do the job and to grow with it without being consumed, to find a way to do it without being overwhelmed, and to preserve time and energy for myself. I need to read and write for myself, retain my identity as I change my identity.
Who and what do I want to be?
II think there are several other reasons. One, I really lost Mondays due to the 6 hour teaching schedule, which absolutely obliterates a whole day and also destroys the rhythm of the week. I just feel out of kilter the remaining days. Two, it was a cold and wet soccer season, the first in years, so another rhythm was disrupted. Third, it got cold, too cold, too early in November. December has been temperate, but hideously overcast, and so as the days have shrunk down we have had far too little sun. The last six weeks the days have been monotonous, unforgivingly short, and dreary.
BUt I have accepted a new job, it begins in two days, so tomorrow is my last day in the odd interregnum between teaching and administrating. I have spent the last two weeks trying to prepare myself, bolster myself for the transition, but I've done so out of a holistic intellectual sense, downloading tons of ideas about leadership without the burden of discrete goals. All of this prep work ends tomorrow, and I enter my new skin, my new being, my new title, on Tuesday. Tuesday, 9 am. Until then, I am still in the interegnum.
I think the main person I need to convince is myself. It will become a reality on Tuesday.
Odd. Odd to take over in mid year, odd to start the new calendar year which such a vastly different position. Odd to be so isolated from the position, and then to suddenly step into it. I haven't experienced this kind of career shift in over twenty years. The challenge for me is to find a new way to do the job and to grow with it without being consumed, to find a way to do it without being overwhelmed, and to preserve time and energy for myself. I need to read and write for myself, retain my identity as I change my identity.
Who and what do I want to be?
posted by David Martin at 8:45 PM
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